Sunday, 7 August 2011

Discovering what has in the UK?

Discovering what has in the UK?

As wrote before my beginning of life in UK, and when I look back now it was kind of perfect, but I haven't started yet my MA course there, face a bit different educational system and it has a reason, of course, when you look the world that is divide by different cultures, and it was a shock for me.

First time I moved out Brazil, and for me, most educational systems should be like the Brazilian one, but NO!

Not very different, but I didn't prepare myself for this difference and I've arrived there to start straight way my course.

My lucky was I started to get very evolved with Jeff and shortly he became my boyfriend, I was in love, of course, and he helped me a lot with life in general there.

I think took around a year to I get used to the basic life in UK. I mean basic life like: food, bank, bills and more important people and their social behavior, it was not easy, but enjoyable as any part of the discovery of a new country, culture.

I need to say the culture in UK is different from Brazil, first thing I've noticed there, their concept of family in society, it is different. People leave home very early, usually around 20 years old, and in Brazil they can normally live with their family for a long time, even live forever. One good reason for the British leave and the Brazilians being sometimes forever with their families, it is the economical situation of the countries, good in UK, and not so good in Brazil, but then I'm talking about centuries of economical and cultural development of these countries and the world surrounded them.

Monday, 18 April 2011

The proper beginning of life in UK - Southampton

And here will go, the very beginning of life in UK, in case I went straight to Southampton, where I would study and live, and Jeff, the guy I was chatting online offered to pick me up at Heathrow airport and I accepted and he went there to picked me up and we got on very well, it was a very good beginning to start live in UK with a kind support of a British man. I remember I've arrived in UK in January, a few days before my 28 years old birthday, it was planned, my idea was start up my new life in a big way.

When I've arrived to my new life, all my life conditions in Southampton were sorted, I had a MA to do, I have a part time job as web designer and a good and supportive friend, I was immensely happy :)

I don't know if I wrote it before, but it was my first time abroad and it wasn't turism, it was to make a life in another country, scary!! But I loved it :)

Monday, 14 March 2011

In England

As i said before, I've researched alot for faculties, universities where I could study what I want to study. I found finally Solent Southampton University, looked great for me it has a Masters of Media and Arts, so I went for it. :)

So, I was getting to know more and more the power of the Internet, and start to research everything about the degree, England and British people online. I never stopped myself to think that most of the music I love comes from UK, it was definitely a better reason to do this MA in UK, and I selected exactly Southampton because is very close to London. and of course because the degree. I was accepted in 7 or 10 universities in England, but Southampton seemed pretty interesting for me, close to London, by the sea.

Next step for me by the time, it was make friends online, and by ICQ (software i don't know if still exist) I met Jeff. I found this guy quite fun and a interesting chat, we became very good friends online, maybe a little more than this, just online, aha he was/is very into music, someone that I could discuss and talk about music, very important for me.

Actually by this time I was discovering many things about music, rock, especially electronic music; I was in rock band Animais dos Espelhos, in many ways a brand new world was opening for me and I was loving this world.

I always will love rock, but my vibe start to be much more into electronic music.
And England is the place to be if you love electronic music.

Very Beginning of life in England

Well, better started from how I have the idea to go somewhere else.
It started when I was finishing my degree at UnB in Brasilia and I was research student in one project at the MA in Art and Technology of the Fine Arts Department, and I need to study deeply the Internet and it was in the beginning 0f the Internet around 1995, at least in Brazil, and I was completely enchanted by the new technology, how it could reduce long distant to a so close 'space'?

For me by the time, it opened a door to a new world, and I was completely up to explore it and I did and I plan to keep exploring it, it is magic for me.

So, I was finishing my degree in Fine Arts (believe me!) and I've realized that I do appreciate Arts, but what really attract me, it is another subject and I found out that is communication technologies, so I needed to find a way to study it without dissociate my degree background. I spent probably researching one year until I find the best way to study what I like, it is doing a MA, in case, by the time I found the best thing was go outside Brazil, explore the world, explore life, explore the new technology, the INTERNET.

Sunday, 13 February 2011

End story in Netherlands

End story in Netherlands

Too many disappointments about my life in Netherlands, especially the personal one. I had a good life experience, I've try my best to resist to come back to Brazil, but it was too painful for me, I didn't think it was the best for me be back here but sometimes you don't have options, you need to step back to carry on living.

Next post I will write about my life in UK, my first time out Brazil, my first time proving life, I love UK, I love London :)

Tuesday, 18 January 2011

Lost in this world: Continuing my stories in Netherlands

After a little break, new year - 2011 - break, I'm returning to continuing my stories, now, Im telling you my story about my life in Netherlands.
Well, I was telling you about my frustration about live up north, in Harlingen and work in Amsterdam

Well, my job, my colleagues, it was a new life in this point, starting to me, all very exciting, I was very happy about it, but not happy with my personal live, living in Harlingen, starting to be very disappointing with my relationship.Everyday I was waking up praying my life will change for something that I like, I believe many of us waking up hoping it.

Well, during I guess 6 months, almost one year I was hoping my personal life could change, until one day my ex got completely insane, fed up and went to company I was working in Amsterdam and made a huge scandal to everybody in the company, said terrible things about me, how horrible I was as I 'didn't want' to get a job just around Harlingen etc, etc, etc... of course all his point of view, and how he was feeling.
It was a big thing to the company management and I could understand it until the day the HR called me and fire me up. This was a big damage for this almost nothing relationship, but I did manage to don't look thing in such a bad way.

I've try to find a job just around Harlingen, but it was almost impossible because:

1 - my dutch, I could speak a few dutch but most companies found not enough to work.

2 - Harlingen is a inner country village, so not many business going on around there

3 - funny enough, happened exactly what is going on to me now (very difficult to find a job in Brasilia), 'well specialized' 'why you don't go to live in the main cities, there definitely you can find something for you'

Well, I found my destiny was get married and have kids, nothing else to me there.
I thought about it, but something inside me was going against this decision, it was not for me, I'm too much independent to agree to this 'destiny'!

Then I returned to Brazil completely sad and destroyed, thinking I did try, but it looked like it is not for me there. But I think I told you before Im very persistant, so after a few month I returned to Netherlands to try for the last time. And this time it was the worse time, the relationship was completely dead.

Then I got crazy and sent my CV to Amsterdam, The Hague, Rotterdam to the biggest cities in Netherlands and yes, I received some really good offers in these cities to move there to work there, but my visa was completely connected to my ex and he was completely against move out Harligen to help me, for him the best solution was I become a mother, once more I was sure he was not the man for me.

Continuing my stories in Netherlands

After a little break, new year - 2011 - break, I'm returning to continuing my stories, now Im telling you my story about my life in Netherland.

My life there was quite OK, the only problem for me and my ex boyfriend was that I was working in Amsterdam. Amsterdam is a world apart in Netherlands, my feeling there was has not much about the Dutch way to be, more traditional; Amsterdam is very much, at least, seems much more liberal, open minded.

For me, living in Harlingen, small village situated in a very traditional area in Netherlands, and work Amsterdam, a very liberal city there, after a while it was a shock!

And emotionally it started to do a damage on me

I mean, I'm not exactly the sort of girl that can live well satisfied in a small village, I was trying to adapt myself to this reality but it was hard for me, specially living practically alone as my ex was going to work on the sea for 3 months; I knew people that I could enjoy myself with, but all them living around or in Amsterdam.

It was a tough time for me, I had love and money but in some ways very away from me - love yes, but my ex was 3 months away, working - money, yes, but I needed to drive everyday 2 hours to work and I wasn't live close to work, in Amsterdam!

Working in Amsterdam, feeling the atmosphere there and most of my workmates living there I started to feel pretty tempted to live there, I suggested it to my ex, and the answer was pretty rude ' It is much more expensive to live in Amsterdam ' and I tried to argue about the benefits to live there etc...

Then start my final nightmare there :(