How everything started

Here I'm back my hometown Brasilia and it is not being so nice, I have this disease, Multiple sclerosis, Im taking the injections that avoid you have attacks, but this the only good point to be back Brazil, I've trying to get work here and nothing, may be because I'm too specialized for Brazil, but I just tried in Brasilia, maybe I should go to bigger cities like Sao Paulo, but even there I'm not sure if I can find work.

Brazil developed a bit, it is true, but still a lot of work to be done to step up to a second world country, for me still a third world country.

Anyway without work and a life here?
I don't think I will stay longer here.

Anyway, my purpose for this blog, it is tell my story around the world

For me make sense start all from the last place I was living


CHINA!! Changzhou

China was a very interesting experience. Quite different from any culture I've ever imagine. And working teaching Interactive media for the Chinese guys was a great experience, I can say I would not go back to live there, but as a life experience was amazing, I've learned about the world and myself as person.

I've lived in 2 towns there: Changzhou and Shanghai, my first 2 years I spent living in Changzhou, teaching there for the same school - Raffles Design Institute.

Do they speak English? A little, they speak as much English as majority of the population in Brazil, almost nothing.

Did you need to learn Mandarin? No, I've always had a translator with me in the classes. All my classes always were in English.

But it was very interesting to see the interaction between me and the Chinese students, firstly they were coming to try to talk with me and of course I've answered in English and they look at me as they are understanding but NO!

But if you look their faces you think they are, this something I've learned from them; they never never can be ashamed! Its a very bad bad posture in China, I've heard about it, in all Asia, but I just perceived it in China.

Physical living conditions in Changzhou, first apartments I've lived there not very good, but after I situated myself there I found what is not too bad and cheap (it is cheap because Changzhou is a small town).

Life was not bad by this time, good apartment, good job ah I found a boyfriend, not Chinese, but French. Many foreigners going to China to work, as you get paid well and live well and for men you can have all those Chinese girls surround you. In my first year in China I completely hated all those girls, for me they were going around the foreigners, almost attacking them to have something with them, aarggghhh!!

And Im a woman, as anybody around the world, you can be alone for a while, but after a while we need to find a partner, someone to share life and in case Chinese men was not for me at all, but the foreigners were going to the Chinese girls aarrrgghh!!

Then luckily I found this French guy Ronan, he is working for a Belgium company in Changzhou.

We spent one year and a half together and it was a good relationship, I don't have complain about.

I had a few serious relationships lets say 4 or 5 ones, and this one with Ronan was a very good one, almost no arguments, we are very similar kind of people.

I can see after a few relationships that I'm stepping up in this aspect, has a evolution, you dont do the same mistakes and silly things that you did before, definitely a evolution and I can say that next relationship ( Ronan was the last one) will be better as I'm 37 years and all the time I'm learning better to deal with live, so....

Relationship, a man, a partner forever??? I sometimes miss it, but I ask myself. does it exist? I'm still checking out...

My problem is, I built up myself to be very independent, so after sometime specially after 30 years, you feel you need to settled down and stop somewhere alone?? Loneless is not nice now, it was a few years ago but now, I don't feel anymore in this way

But anyway it is just life, lets come back to my story.

I had a different experience with Ronan in Changzhou, may be just different for me; surprisingly one day going holiday with him to Hong Kong I found out I was pregnant.

I never expected this in my life but I didn't think was a bad situation, I was with a good job, good boyfriend, why not have the baby?

First thing that really scared me 'has a baby to live in China???!!!' Different culture etc...

But I didn't have time enough to think about it, I had a miscarriage in the second month of this pregnancy and then I felt really bad, that is normal and my relationship with Ronan started to go down to the hole.

I think now I should talk a bit about my holidays in Asia.
I didn't travel to all the countries in Asia just, Malaysia, Phillipinas and Thailand.
You can check the pictures in my FLICKR website, ah and in China I went to travel holiday in many towns