I still in Earth and life carry on :)

Hello all How is going ;ofe? Has a while that I dont post here, life always move if you live in Earth :) I will tell you the news(br) I got retired because my illness MS Multiple Sclerosis. Im ok but definitely got worse doesnt suprise me as it is a degenerative illness, but I still doing my things live. Today Im depressed because I dont have more pills for depression and the doctor told that you get depressed because MS, I dont have idea she told me.(br) Lately surprise me Im quite happy I believe the medicine for depression helps but another things that are going on my life also helps. I born catholic, but lately because my sister is Spiritualist I became, and my god, it made a difference for me, my outlook of the world change, made a transformation on me not a massive transformation, but good enough to make me happy :)(br) Many things I would like to have now in my life didnt happened like I find a love, but I learned with the Spiritualism to look into yourself in a different way. My relationship with my mom became much better with my family my sister and brother.(br) I learned that life has a cycle and you are in this cycle and you cant do anything to change, actually you can but wont change, so Im try to do my best to dont try to change this cycle and be unhappy.(br) I will carry on write now I will not take a long time, very soon I write more.(br) Kisses(br) Bye

Scammers: Psycholotical rape, be very careful

I have a scare review today, the last months I was stolen by a SCAMMER online. Remember by last post inlove an Internet romance I found after this scammer can damage financially and emotionally very much. It is a long story I will start now. I got a request from a maritime engineer from UK one day and I say to myself ' why not add this men at least I know a bit about his routine' and added him, we start to chat supposed he is from UK and was working in the sea. You thing I know and made very up to this scammer, Im definitely very needy if I can find in reality why not go to the internet? And this scammer ( I didnt know was one ) started to realize it and start to be very involvedand after a short time I was very much in love for him, we start to make plans to meet up etc... But the attack was just about to start, he told me he has a son that was in acollege excursion in Ghana and had an accident and needed help to pay the hospital as he couldnt get any money in a ship, this part is true, so he asked me to lend money to him and of course soon as he is in land me he pay me back. Innoncently I lend him the money 2000 dollars! Never more I will see this money again Im sure! And it is sick this all the time after he was inventing new things to get more money from me, finally I just blocked him completely. But the Internet is like the real world, what he did basically it is still money from me! I know as everybody especially my sister that lives in Canada, get into the real world. I did a research about it and seems like many many women around the world suffer from these scams. For me know it is become a nightmare especially because the emmptional side of it, yesterday I even couldnt sleep. Here a website about and seems Ghana it is a main point for it http://ghana.usembassy.gov/romance_scam.html The thing is Ive learned in the worse way that you have a real world, the right thing to do is looking in the real world and dont expected too much from the virtual world, the ones that read my blog can followed the story of my last years, Ive met some boyfriends by Internet, but the man Im in love now I met in reality :), I think I already comment about him, he was my first boyfriend in Brazil and still in love for him, I tought in another country, another man could make me happy, but it is wrong, just in my dreams maybe.

Internet Romance? ! :)

Hi, I have a romantic tale to tell you ok? The Internet? Has many meaning for everybody, but for me exactly now has a romantic meaning ad I still absorving it. I wiill tell you from the beginning : 

One day sunddendly he sent me a message thought Skype and we start to chat, I like straight away that is he is British where I lived for a few years) and he is maritime engineer (I lived with one for a few years in Netherlands) He is a cool guy and he told everything about his life, first he is 49 years and has a son, his wife died when was giving birth to the second one and he has one son that she had before, actually he has 15 years old.

After a few chat he asked me if I would like to marry him and be the mother of his son and also mother of the future kids. It made me think, "why not? I have 40 years old, basic I traveled a lot, I have this MS" As any human being I need to try my best to be happy, and be because Im so focused on me I missed may opportunities.


 I accept :) He is working soon as return to UK I will go there to meet him and marry :)

Strangely I study Media and Arts there in England, I have a feeling that will work well, a romance thought the Internet? Internet is a new media, it is so difficult to define the bad and the good on it.

Here Im back with my tales, but now I have a Brazilian one that is going on now, nothing really bad but lets a challenge. I was fired 2 weeks ago, reason: they think I cant attend well to the work because are consequence of my disease MS.

Worth a break :)

I will give you a break in my stories about UK and other countries that I had been, and I will be back a little later. The reason is finally life in Brazil is starting to show up a bit for me, I have a job, getting to know people; well I started to get a bit more used to be in Brazil and it is not bad, it is just life :) it is why I asked a little break to tell you my life in Brazil now, in the readaptation process.

Music forever!

Continuing my story in England, just before leave Brazil, actually everytime I was very connect to music, in case all styles, of course always I was looking for the good ones in my point of view, I can say thank you my parents, specially my father, to introduced me im a public music school in Brasilia when I was 6,7 years old, it was a beginning of self knowledge about the world and about myself.

When I moved to England it just expanded completely in myself, after it I was in a rock band in Brasilia, so definitely music was always envolved in my life and England! England has a music soul, I never forget one day we were going by car to London spent the weekend there and in the way Southanpton / London Jeff just turned on the radio and connected many pirate radios, Djs playing excellent music and I believe a few people were making music live, amazing!!!! After this day I was sure UK breath music :))

I believe during the same time I found what was for me the best online radio I´ve heard/seen in my life - GROOVETECH -. I remember it made so excited and high and it was live from London one day another day it was live from Seattle.

Exploring England

There was so different for me, I mean physically, remember I never left Brazil before! So the bio types, men and women, kids, because they are blond, many blond people and white skin! ah light color eyes; we can see it in Brazil, of course, but not many together. For me it just defines the bio type of another race!
For me, after traveled so many different places, the world is divide in 4 different races: white: European and Latins, Africans, Asiatics.

Observing this difference in one aspect the world start to becomes bigger, when you realize these differences that you can perceive so clear around you where you were live. I can say I got on well with a few British people, the ones I met in England, looking back now, quite good people, just remember one Paul, he studied with me at my MA, he was from the Media Writing course, we got on very well, we didn't became close friends by the time but later after I left England and came back to Brazil we start to talk by the Internet, he had a brain tumor, he couldn't finish the course, he needed to left the course to trait this tumor and I guess 3 years ago he died, very sad :((((((