Scammers: Psycholotical rape, be very careful

I have a scare review today, the last months I was stolen by a SCAMMER online. Remember by last post inlove an Internet romance I found after this scammer can damage financially and emotionally very much. It is a long story I will start now. I got a request from a maritime engineer from UK one day and I say to myself ' why not add this men at least I know a bit about his routine' and added him, we start to chat supposed he is from UK and was working in the sea. You thing I know and made very up to this scammer, Im definitely very needy if I can find in reality why not go to the internet? And this scammer ( I didnt know was one ) started to realize it and start to be very involvedand after a short time I was very much in love for him, we start to make plans to meet up etc... But the attack was just about to start, he told me he has a son that was in acollege excursion in Ghana and had an accident and needed help to pay the hospital as he couldnt get any money in a ship, this part is true, so he asked me to lend money to him and of course soon as he is in land me he pay me back. Innoncently I lend him the money 2000 dollars! Never more I will see this money again Im sure! And it is sick this all the time after he was inventing new things to get more money from me, finally I just blocked him completely. But the Internet is like the real world, what he did basically it is still money from me! I know as everybody especially my sister that lives in Canada, get into the real world. I did a research about it and seems like many many women around the world suffer from these scams. For me know it is become a nightmare especially because the emmptional side of it, yesterday I even couldnt sleep. Here a website about and seems Ghana it is a main point for it http://ghana.usembassy.gov/romance_scam.html The thing is Ive learned in the worse way that you have a real world, the right thing to do is looking in the real world and dont expected too much from the virtual world, the ones that read my blog can followed the story of my last years, Ive met some boyfriends by Internet, but the man Im in love now I met in reality :), I think I already comment about him, he was my first boyfriend in Brazil and still in love for him, I tought in another country, another man could make me happy, but it is wrong, just in my dreams maybe.

Internet Romance? ! :)

Hi, I have a romantic tale to tell you ok? The Internet? Has many meaning for everybody, but for me exactly now has a romantic meaning ad I still absorving it. I wiill tell you from the beginning : 

One day sunddendly he sent me a message thought Skype and we start to chat, I like straight away that is he is British where I lived for a few years) and he is maritime engineer (I lived with one for a few years in Netherlands) He is a cool guy and he told everything about his life, first he is 49 years and has a son, his wife died when was giving birth to the second one and he has one son that she had before, actually he has 15 years old.

After a few chat he asked me if I would like to marry him and be the mother of his son and also mother of the future kids. It made me think, "why not? I have 40 years old, basic I traveled a lot, I have this MS" As any human being I need to try my best to be happy, and be because Im so focused on me I missed may opportunities.


 I accept :) He is working soon as return to UK I will go there to meet him and marry :)

Strangely I study Media and Arts there in England, I have a feeling that will work well, a romance thought the Internet? Internet is a new media, it is so difficult to define the bad and the good on it.

Here Im back with my tales, but now I have a Brazilian one that is going on now, nothing really bad but lets a challenge. I was fired 2 weeks ago, reason: they think I cant attend well to the work because are consequence of my disease MS.

Worth a break :)

I will give you a break in my stories about UK and other countries that I had been, and I will be back a little later. The reason is finally life in Brazil is starting to show up a bit for me, I have a job, getting to know people; well I started to get a bit more used to be in Brazil and it is not bad, it is just life :) it is why I asked a little break to tell you my life in Brazil now, in the readaptation process.

Music forever!

Continuing my story in England, just before leave Brazil, actually everytime I was very connect to music, in case all styles, of course always I was looking for the good ones in my point of view, I can say thank you my parents, specially my father, to introduced me im a public music school in Brasilia when I was 6,7 years old, it was a beginning of self knowledge about the world and about myself.

When I moved to England it just expanded completely in myself, after it I was in a rock band in Brasilia, so definitely music was always envolved in my life and England! England has a music soul, I never forget one day we were going by car to London spent the weekend there and in the way Southanpton / London Jeff just turned on the radio and connected many pirate radios, Djs playing excellent music and I believe a few people were making music live, amazing!!!! After this day I was sure UK breath music :))

I believe during the same time I found what was for me the best online radio I´ve heard/seen in my life - GROOVETECH -. I remember it made so excited and high and it was live from London one day another day it was live from Seattle.

Exploring England

There was so different for me, I mean physically, remember I never left Brazil before! So the bio types, men and women, kids, because they are blond, many blond people and white skin! ah light color eyes; we can see it in Brazil, of course, but not many together. For me it just defines the bio type of another race!
For me, after traveled so many different places, the world is divide in 4 different races: white: European and Latins, Africans, Asiatics.

Observing this difference in one aspect the world start to becomes bigger, when you realize these differences that you can perceive so clear around you where you were live. I can say I got on well with a few British people, the ones I met in England, looking back now, quite good people, just remember one Paul, he studied with me at my MA, he was from the Media Writing course, we got on very well, we didn't became close friends by the time but later after I left England and came back to Brazil we start to talk by the Internet, he had a brain tumor, he couldn't finish the course, he needed to left the course to trait this tumor and I guess 3 years ago he died, very sad :((((((

Continuing living in Southampton

My classes in Southampton started at the university. Still feel all strange, different, so I started to look the good sides, good things around me; I started to have a love relationship with Jeff, I was very much in love and another thing that impressed me it was Jeff's love for music and I was looking for new music to know, listen and I could find many with Jeff, bands, groups that most probably I will love forever like Depeche Mode, a few friends in Brazil already love Depeche Mode but I always was closed to .... until Jeff :) Kruder and Dorfmeister that showed me a more melodic way to do electronic music and I've got to know many more groups.

I remember one thing that we loved to do together, go out to the music shop and buy CDs in promotion, I remember we found Kruder and Dorfmeister in this way.

This was the beginning for me to take conscious of ways that I would like to follow in my life, like music, I already told you before here that I've played in a rock band in Brasilia, but get to know more music, specially in UK that has music pulsing in their soul made me completely aware about my feelings for music and more I lived there, more I was investigating my thoughts about music, and investigating music, of course took me sometime to get near a conclusion about it, and it is still going on but every day it becomes more and more clear. But lets go back to my life in England.

One good thing about my life, it was that Jeff had a company car, so we could go to London and other places in England, it was very convenient, for instance, we want to go to music shows, just get in the car and go! We did it to go Garbage show, Lamb and many more.
Lamb show was a incredible experience for me, it was in Brighton not so far from Southampton. It was my first show in England, I remember I didn't know what expect, never heard much about Lamb and it was an amazing show, they are not like a traditional rock band, far from it, I can call them experimental rock band, I was very impressed with the bass movement, the bassist, the vocalist, in the end it is difficult to make any judgment, it was what I realized and just enjoyed a lot the show, finish the show we got back to Southampton and when I arrived, time to go sleep, I did try, but I couldn't sleep, too excited with the experience, difficult to cool down and sleep (probably Jeff can remember it); it is was wonderful experience, the show, the music, the ambient !!!!!!!!!!! After this show Lamb became one of my favorites bands :)